I love this one. Virgin Hyuk. So cute. Aw shucks.
I fell in love when I was eighteen years old. I never expected to fall in love at such a young age, but I did. And I blame him.
I met Sanghyuk on the first day of
college. We shared a class and I noticed him right away because he was
taller than most of the guys in the class. Broad shoulders, great body,
sharp features, a nose a little too big for his face and a mischievous grin
that just made me melt. Why a grin would do that to me I'd never be able
to figure out, but it did.
At first we didn't say much to each
other. He was popular and had a huge group of friends he hung out with
daily. I was quiet and studious, focused more on my studies than
socializing. But I noticed him. Every time he came into the room,
my eyes followed him. He fascinated me and it was honestly a bit
intimidating how distracting he was for me.
It got worse when we were assigned
to be lab partners. He slid into the seat next to mine, that cheeky grin
on his face. I wanted to be annoyed with him, but for the life of me, I
had no idea how to act around him and just ducked my head. He didn't let
that happen for long, his arm nudging me, bringing me out of my shyness.
He talked to me all the time, never letting me remember that I was shy.
It was a weird feeling to have someone talk to me and not be intimidated by my
quiet nature.
As we worked together, we got more
comfortable in each others company. I found myself opening up to him,
smiling, laughing, basically a complete opposite to my normal behavior.
On the days we had classes together, I found myself looking forward to it,
taking extra care in my appearance.
I didn't even realize what my
feelings were until my friend pointed it out. We were out at lunch and I
was prattling on about something Sanghyuk had done, when she leaned over and
put her hand on my arm.
"Whoa, you've got it bad!"
I stopped talking, looking at her in
confusion.
"What do you mean?"
"We've been here for
twenty minutes and all you've done is talk about Sanghyuk."
"I did? Really? Are
you sure?"
She rolled her eyes at me as she
went back to her salad.
"Trust me, I know more about
him than I'd like. Don't get me wrong, he's adorable, but in a cute puppy
kind of way."
"Cute puppy? He's
gorgeous!"
She snickered and gestured at me
with her fork.
"And here we go again!"
"Oh, shut up!"
"Someone's got a crush!
Someone's got a crush!"
Her sing-song voice made me want to
smack her. But as I finished up my sandwich, I realized she was
right. I did have a crush and it was painful.
As the class progressed it got even
more painful. It was obvious to me that he didn't see me as anything but
a lab partner and maybe a buddy. He was always friendly and outgoing
towards me, but never did he do or say anything that would encourage my crush
to go further. It sucked, to be honest, because I was finding myself
liking him more and more.
Yes, he was a bit obnoxious, his
smart tongue and mischievous nature getting him into his fair share of scrapes,
but he was also generous to a fault and had a good heart. He was nice to
everyone, not just his group of friends. It was nice and very, very
frustrating. If he'd singled another girl out and was only friendly to
her, I'd be able to move away from this thing I felt. But he
wasn't. And when he was nice to me, even though I knew there was nothing
behind it, my poor heart would beat faster and my palms would sweat. It
was so unfair that everything I felt was so one-sided.
My friends were tired of me talking
about him all the time and it got to the point where one of my friends told me
I had to tell him I liked him or she would. Since she never gave threats
lightly, I knew it was now or never. Thankfully, it was the day before
summer break. I figured I could tell him and then disappear for three
months. It took all of my courage to ask him if I could talk to him after
class. He gave me a weird look, but agreed. Once the class had
ended and we were the only ones there, I took a deep breath and let it all out.
"IreallylikeyouandIknowyoudon'tlikemethatway,
butIhadtotellyouormyfriendwould."
I spoke so fast the words all
blended together, my nerves making me stutter. Sanghyuk stared at me, his
eyebrows scrunched up as he tried to decipher what I'd said.
"Can you say that again?
Because I have no idea what you said."
I took another deep breath and
closed my eyes, knowing that if I looked at him when I said it, I'd lose my
nerve.
"I like you and I know you
don't like me that way, but I had to tell you or my friend would."
Without giving him a chance to
respond, I turned on my heel and ran, my eyes blurred with humiliated
tears. I didn't want him to know how I felt about him and the fact that
I'd felt forced into it sucked. I ran all the way home, my sides heaving
and sweat pouring down my body. I didn't stop until I'd reached my room,
my mother's voice in the kitchen a distant drone. I didn't want to see or
talk to anyone. I wanted to wallow in my humiliation just a bit longer.
I locked the door and slid down
until I sat on the floor, my head back against the door. Why me?
Why him? Why couldn't I have had a crush on someone as quiet and shy as
me where we'd just smile at each other and blush all day? Why did it have
to be him? I was so thankful that I wouldn't have to see him for the next
three months. Summer break was a godsend.
The next day I left to start my
internship. I'd applied for it at the beginning of the year and being
accepted made my dream one step closer. I wanted to be a fashion
designer. I'd always loved fabric and made most of my own clothes.
The design firm I interned at was one of the best in the world and it was
everything I'd ever wanted.
At first it was terrifying. I
didn't know the language very well, even though I'd studied it in school.
The beautiful models I worked around were intimidating beyond belief. The
first two weeks I was there, I cried myself to sleep every night, missing my
family, my friends and him.
Things got better when I befriended
one of my fellow interns. Mari was everything I wasn't; worldly, super
outgoing with a flair that I envied. We found ourselves working together
quite a bit and started talking. Turns out we had a lot in common,
including boys. Except where mine was unrequited, hers was mutual.
She was nineteen and head over heels in love with her boyfriend. She
commiserated with me when I told her about what had happened over coffee one
night.
"Ah, so you are the shy
type? But men love shy women."
I snorted with laughter before
taking a sip of my latte.
"Maybe in your world, but not
in mine. Men tend to avoid me like I have the plague because all I do in
their presence is blush and stutter. It sucks."
Mari dug into her purse, pulling out
her cell phone.
"This calls for an
intervention! My friends and I will school you on the ways of men and
love. When you go back, this Sanghyuk will not know what hit him!"
I protested to deaf ears as she
dialed up her friends and asked them to meet us. Twenty minutes later I
was surrounded by fifteen women all near my age. They chattered at me
like magpies, making my head swim from too much stimulation. I finally
held my hands up to ward them all off.
"Whoa, whoa, whoa! You
guys need to speak one at a time! And slow down! I can barely keep
up with you!"
They all laughed and did as I
asked. They began calling out suggestions, some outlandish, but some
worth remembering.
"When you go back to school,
pretend he's not there. Men like the chase."
"When he talks to you, talk to
him like you would a friend. Don't act shy or bashful. Have
confidence!"
The list went on and on until I felt
like my head was going to explode. A part of me wished I'd had the
forethought to bring pen and paper to jot down everything. It was when
clothing was mentioned that I finally put a stop to it. One of the girls
recommended I wear revealing clothing to show off my assets and I shouted a
hearty "Hell, no!" to nip that thought in the bud. At my
reaction they all got quiet and looked at me closer.
One of the girls, the eldest of the
group, came over and held her hands out to me. I took them and let her
pull me to my feet. She began to turn me, slowly, making noises under her
breath as she looked me over. I kept my mouth shut, wondering what she
was doing. I got my answer when she let go of my hands and motioned for
me to sit back down.
"Your overall style is
good. We just need to polish it up a little bit. Do you wear
makeup? What about contacts? The glasses are cute, but your eyes
are so pretty. You should think about getting contacts so that your eyes
will be revealed."
A few more pointers before they
gathered up their things and left. I sat, bewildered, wondering what had
just happened. Mari sat next to me, a Cheshire cat grin on her
face.
"What?"
"I cannot wait for you to go
back to him. He will not know what to do."
I rolled my eyes, but she was
right. He wouldn't know what hit him when I went back with my new style
and my fragile confidence that was slowly getting stronger. After I took
the girls' advice and experimented with makeup and getting contacts, things
changed. Men, who had never looked at me twice, began to flirt with
me. It was so weird and overwhelming I didn't know how to react at
first. But I remembered what the others had said and would just smile and
ignore them. I wasn't interested anyway.
When the internship was over, I said
goodbye to Mari and her friends with a heavy heart. I would miss them and
their friendliness. They were all excited to hear about what would happen
when I got home and I had to make many promises that I would tell them before
they were satisfied. The trip home passed in a blur and when I arrived,
my mother was there. She met me with a tight hug and a few sniffles
before taking me home. It was two days before the new semester started
and I had to prepare.
On the first day of school I saw
Sanghyuk on the other side of the main square, surrounded by his friends like
usual. He saw me and smiled, before his face settled into a neutral
expression as he took in my new look. I'd gotten my hair cut shorter, a
pageboy bob that showed off my neck. My glasses were gone in favor of new
contacts. Light makeup and a pretty new outfit I'd made. A new book
bag and Doc boots finished up my ensemble. I felt...different.
Powerful, almost. When I walked in those boots, I had a whole new
walk. It was more confident with a longer stride and I loved it.
Walking into class, my eyes
automatically scanned for him, even though I didn't think we'd have classes
together anymore. I was there for my design degree while he was there for
something else. But, there he was, sitting at his desk, legs stretched
out and arms crossed over his chest. He saw me walk in and motioned at me
to come to him. I debated it for a second, before ignoring him in favor
of a seat closer to the front.
All through the class I could sense
him watching me. I'd never felt anything like it before and knew if I
turned around, he'd be staring right at me. I resolutely stared straight
ahead, following my friends instructions. After the debacle that was my
confession I'd done a lot of thinking. I still liked him; that wasn't
something I could control. But, I could control how I handled it.
What the other girls had told me had stuck. I wasn't necessarily out to
play hard to get, since that wasn't in my nature, but I also wasn't going to
fall at his feet either.
After class, I gathered up my bag
and left. I was halfway down the hall when I felt a hand on my
shoulder. I was spun around until I faced him, my mouth open in shock.
"Excuse me," I cried,
shoving his hand away. "There's no need to manhandle me. You
could've just called my name!"
Sanghyuk sighed, his hands shoving
into his pockets.
"I'm sorry. I wanted to
talk to you when I saw you earlier but didn't get a chance. When did this
happen," he asked, gesturing at me. I glanced down at myself before
looking back up at him.
"While I was on my
internship. Do you like it?"
I inwardly cringed at my faux
pas. I hadn't meant to ask him that, it had just slipped out. I
honestly didn't want to hear his opinion because if he hated it, I'd feel like
an idiot.
"It's...different. I kind
of miss the old you."
My head cocked when I heard him say
that. I did hear him say that, didn't I? He said he missed the old
me. I was so confused.
"What do you mean you miss the
old me? I'm still me, just polished."
"The old you seemed, I don't
know, sweeter? You've got an edge now and it's kinda scary."
I wanted to face palm at his words,
but instead I just shook my head.
"Sanghyuk, I give up. I
can't do this anymore."
With those words, I turned and
walked away. I was blind and deaf to everything, my feet leading me
home. I'd walked this route thousands of times and could do it
blindfolded. When the rain began to fall, I wanted to throw my hands up
and shout at God for doing this to me. It was bad enough that I'd
confessed all those months ago. But now, my attempts at making myself better
were an absolute failure. I was a joke of epic proportions and it sucked
to realize it.
Instead of going home, I continued
to walk, the rain drenching me. It was summer and it wasn't cold, but I
knew I looked like a drowned rat as I stumbled along. I wasn't crying, I
wasn't doing much of anything, my focus completely internal as I mentally
berated myself for this, that and everything.
I heard my name being called, yelled
even and turned to watch as Sanghyuk ran towards me. He stopped a mere
foot away, his hands on his knees as he bent over to catch his breath. I
watched, waiting for him to regain his composure. I didn't know what to
say to break the silence nor did I know why he'd followed me.
"Damn, woman! I've been
yelling your name for the last ten minutes! Are you deaf or
something?"
I shook my head and turned to walk
away. His hand on my arm stopped me.
"Would you stop doing
that? Every time I try to talk to you, you walk away from me and it's
starting to piss me off. Can I please say my piece now?"
I sighed and motioned for him to
continue. His hand dropped to his side and he just looked at me.
The silence was a bit unnerving, but I waited.
"Why did you run away after you
told me you liked me? You never gave me a chance to respond."
"I was humiliated. I
didn't want to tell you and my friend forced my hand."
"Why didn't you want to tell
me?"
"Sanghyuk, honestly? Let
me count the reasons, shall I? First of all, you're stupid popular.
You could have any girl at this school and then some. Secondly, I'm not
your type. Thirdly, you are so far out of my league it's not even funny
and I felt like it was a waste of both of our time."
He listened as I went through my
list, his arms crossing over his chest. When I'd finished talking,
he began to laugh. It wasn't mean or malicious, it was a full-blown belly
laugh. It still pissed me off and I glared at him as he threw his head
back with laughter. How rude!
"First of all," he said
once he'd gotten himself under control, "I'm not stupid popular. I
have friends, but I'm not popular. Secondly, I don't want just any
girl. Thirdly, who's saying you're not my type? And fourth, you're
an idiot."
I gaped up at him, mouth open in
shock. He just called me an idiot? Seriously? Before I could
think of a comeback, his arms had uncrossed and he was reaching for me.
Hands on my upper arms, slowly reeling me in. Rain poured down over us,
soaking us both. His hair was plastered to his skull and droplets dripped
off the tip of his nose, but to me, he was beautiful. When his head
dipped and his mouth brushed over mine, it felt like a dream.
Eyes fluttering shut as I sighed,
hoping I would never wake up if this was a dream. His kiss was everything
I'd ever thought or dreamed about. Lips firm yet soft against mine,
tongue brushing over my lips. Sliding inside when my lips opened on a
gasp, pressing up against my tongue. He tasted of candy, something sweet
and tangy. My arms went up to wrap around his neck, my fingers bunching
in the back of his t-shirt. His hands slid away from my arms and went
around my waist, pulling me close. My very first kiss and it was sheer
perfection.
And now, six months later, I still
have to pinch myself. Every morning I wake up, slip on the glasses he'd
talked me into getting back and send him a text wishing him a good
morning. Every morning, I get a text back telling me he loves me and to
have a good day. Up until now, I never thought in a million years that I
would be with someone who loved me as much as I loved them. And I did
love him with every fiber of my being.
There was only one
little...problem. It wasn't even a problem really. It was more me
dealing with my lack of experience. Sanghyuk was my first
everything. First kiss. First sleepover. First...everything.
And he'd be the first man I'd ever had sex with, if I could get up the guts to
do it. We've made out and things have gotten pretty hot between us, but
every time I sensed it getting to that point, I froze up. And honestly,
I'm getting sick of it. I want him more than I've ever wanted anything in
my life. I want to share myself with him in any and all ways, but the shy
virgin inside of me is terrified. Scared to death I'll do something wrong
and ruin everything.
Today is our six month anniversary
and when my alarm went off, I sat up, slid on my glasses and sent him a happy
anniversary text telling him how happy I was that he was mine and that I loved
him very much. And...nothing. No response. I waited for a
half hour and nothing. I got out of bed with a dejected sigh and went to
take a shower.
As I bathed, I mentally berated
myself. I knew he wanted to go farther. I did too. I loved
the way it felt when he touched me and would drift to sleep with pleasant
dreams. It wasn't like I'd never touched myself. I did, a lot, but
it just wasn't the same. I wanted to feel him inside of me. I
wanted to take this as far as it would go, but I was scared. I'd heard
horror stories about my friends first time and even though I knew a lot of it was
exaggerated, it still circled around in my head.
When my shower was finished and I'd
gotten dressed, I went back into my bedroom and saw the light flashing on my
phone. It was a text from him asking me to meet him that night. It
was cryptic and not his usual sweetness, which made me nervous. Was he
planning on breaking up with me? If that was the case, I didn't know if
I'd be able to survive it.
The entire day I was a nervous
wreck. I was turning myself into a basket case over nothing but supposition
on my part and by the time I went to meet him, I could barely stand
still. He'd asked me to meet him downtown at our favorite
restaurant. I'd dressed with care, wanting him to see that I cared.
When I arrived, he wasn't there. I sat down with a sigh, my fingers
twisting nervously in my lap.
Twenty minutes later, he
arrived. Dressed in a sharp black suit. Hair styled to emphasize
his amazing bone structure. A dozen blood red roses in his arms. I
stood up, all of the nervousness and despair I'd felt all day disappearing,
leaving me feeling slightly lightheaded.
"Sanghyuk!"
He grinned at me, holding the
bouquet out to me.
"Happy anniversary, baby!
I love you!"
I felt the tears welling up as I
accepted the flowers, holding them close to my chest. I took a deep
breath, trying desperately not to cry. And failing miserably. The
tears slid down my cheeks as I ducked my head, my nose buried in the flowers.
The sweet scent filled my senses, overwhelming me.
I felt his arms go around me as he
gathered me close.
"Are you okay?"
"I thought you were going to
break up with me," I said, my voice small. He snorted and slid a
finger under my jaw to lift my head.
"Why would I break up with
you? I love you!"
"But, you were so cryptic this
morning. And I know we haven't had sex yet. And I know you want
to. And I want to too, but I'm scared. So scared I'll make a fool
of myself. Scared that you'll hate me when it's over."
He gathered me close again, his chin
resting on top of my head.
"Silly woman. Is that
what's got you so worked up? Yes, I'd love to make love to you, but I'm
not going to force you to do it. I want you to be 100% sure you're ready,
okay? Don't ever feel like you have to do something you're not ready for
to keep me. I'm a grown man and can take myself in hand if I need
to."
I giggled at his choice of words, a
blush coming up to redden my cheeks. The thought of him masturbating made
a warm shiver go down my spine.
"Having said that, if I tell
you I've rented a room in the hotel, would you hate me? We don't have to
do anything. I just thought we could spend time together away from our
family and stuff. I want to sleep with you in my arms if nothing
else. Okay?"
I nodded and we left the restaurant
without eating. Any thought of food made me slightly nauseous, the
emotional upheaval I'd put myself through all day not being kind to my poor
stomach. And the thought of sleeping in his arms gave me warm
fuzzies. Even if we didn't have sex, knowing that I'd be wrapped up in
his arms all night was the most amazing thought. I couldn't wait.
We checked into our room and held
hands on the elevator ride up. The silence was peaceful and I rested my
head on his shoulder. He chuckled, leaning down to kiss the top of my
head. We got to our room and he unlocked the door, pushing the door open
with a flourish. He gestured for me to step inside and I did.
Lights flicked on behind me, illuminating the room. Flowers on every
available surface, lit candles placed strategically around the room, a bottle
of non-alcoholic champagne on ice. It was magical and
so...him.
I turned to look at him, my hands
clasped in front of me. He leaned against the door, a shit-eating grin on
his face as he watched me. I laughed and charged, jumping up to wrap my
arms around his neck. His arms came around me, pulling me close.
"You're such a devil! I
can't believe you did all this!"
He lifted me up, twirling me around,
before setting me on my feet. The kiss he placed on my nose was playful,
the mischievous grin I loved so much lighting his face.
"You're my everything and I
wanted you to know that. Happy Anniversary, baby. I do love you, so
much."
"I love you too," I said,
going up on tiptoe to kiss him. It was a sweet kiss. Full of
promise. I was so close to telling him I was ready, but it just wasn't
quite time yet. Sanghyuk kissed me back before stepping back.
"I know I didn't have you pack
anything, so I have something you can sleep in. Go change? I'll do
the same, hmm?"
I nodded and took the folded bundle
of clothing from him. Going into the adjoining bathroom I took of my
dress, hanging it up on the back of the door so it wouldn't wrinkle. Removing
my bra and turning to the pile of clothes. He'd given me his favorite
t-shirt and a pair of boxers. Snorting at the decidedly unsexy attire, I
slipped into it. The shirt hung down almost to my knees and the boxers
were so loose it was laughable, but I held them up as I opened the door and
stepped out.
Sanghyuk stood waiting for me, his
back to the door as he looked out the window. I walked up to him,
slipping my arm through his and leaning my head against his shoulder. We
stood like that for a long time, until the boxers gave up their fight with
gravity and slid down to pool at my feet. I looked down and burst into
laughter, my hands coming up to cover my mouth. If I'd had any plans to
seduce him, this was so not how I would have gone about it.
I stepped out of the boxers and
kicked them aside, still getting the giggles as I thought about it.
Sanghyuk didn't say anything as he walked over to the bed and pulled back the
covers. He slid into bed and held up the covers, motioning for me to join
him. I bit my lip, before taking a deep breath and walking the two feet
to the bed.
Sliding in next to him was one of
the hardest things I've ever done. I was shaking with nerves when his
arms wrapped around me and snuggled me up close to him.
"Take a deep breath,
okay? Just close your eyes and go to sleep. Nothing will happen, I
promise. Not until you're ready. I just want to hold you."
He repeated this litany as I did as
he said. His voice got softer as I started to relax, the warmth of his body
around mine comforting me. He rolled over onto his back, draping me over
him so that my head rested on his chest. I drifted off to sleep, his
heartbeat thumping in my ear.
When I woke up, I was disoriented,
no idea where I was. I was laying on my side, my body snug against
something warm. An arm draped over my middle and deep breathing against
my ear. I blinked a couple of times, my mind taking a second to kick
in. My eyes opened wide as I remembered everything. How he'd held
me all night, not letting me go. He'd kept his promise, not making any
moves to seduce me. I felt something hard against my lower back and a
blush streaked my cheeks when I realized what it was.
I seriously had to pee and I
desperately wanted to brush my teeth, but being held close to his body like
that, I didn't want to leave. But my bladder had other ideas and I slowly
made my way off the bed, doing my best not to disturb his sleep. Once I'd
finished taking care of business, I hunted for a toothbrush and toothpaste.
I found both, those tiny travel ones that barely did their job. But I
didn't care. I wanted fresh breath to greet him first thing in the
morning. Not morning breath from hell.
After I finished, I went back into
the bedroom. What I saw made me smile. Sanghyuk was now wrapped
around my pillow, his arms holding it tight. In the bathroom, I'd
realized something. I was ready. For whatever reason, I'd taken
that final step. I needed him. There was no other word for it.
I snuck over to the bed and gently
pulled my pillow away. I'd just sat down on the bed and was getting ready
to stretch out when a strong arm wrapped around my waist and pulled. I
found myself on my back, Sanghyuk looming over me, looking adorably sleep
ruffled, his hair standing on end. He started to lean down to kiss me,
but I held a hand up, covering his mouth.
"Toothbrush and toothpaste are
in the bathroom."
He snickered, before rolling over
and going into the bathroom. I lay there, staring up at the ceiling,
wondering if I was ready for this. When he got back into bed and rolled
into me again, his lips covering mine, I knew I was. I kissed him back
with an intensity I'd never felt before. I knew he could sense it when he
pulled back and looked at me, his hand coming up to brush hair away from my
face.
"You seem happy this
morning."
The sound of his voice sleep husky
and warm made me smile. I'd never heard a man speak first thing in the
morning and I found that I liked it. A lot.
"I am happy. I've come to
a realization."
"What's that?"
"You know that I love you,
right?"
"Of course. I love you
too."
"I know you do. And what
do people do when they're in love? Wait, that sounds dumb."
He smiled at me and bent down to
kiss me again. I pulled back and shook my head.
"I want you to make love to me,
Sanghyuk."
His eyebrows went up in surprise,
before a sweet smile came to his lips.
"Are you sure?"
"I've never been so sure about
anything."
Not another word was said as he bent
down to kiss me again, this time with more intensity. His body was over
mine, his weight a warm heaviness over me. Hands sliding down my sides to
the hem of his t-shirt. Fingers underneath, brushing over my inner thighs
as he slowly pushed the shirt up. Weight shifting to the side, his lips
still against mine, tongue brushing over my lips. I opened for him,
sighing into his mouth at his taste.
He pulled back, his fingers brushing
over the waistband of my panties, tickling me. I shifted, my hands coming
down to cover his. He stared down at me, his hand turning over so that
our fingers could link. He lifted my hand up to his mouth, pressing a
gentle kiss to the back.
"You okay?"
I nodded.
"If I do anything that makes
you uncomfortable, just tell me to stop, okay?"
I waited, wondering what his next
move would be. He sat me up and pulled the t-shirt over my head, leaving
me bare but for my underwear. He lay me back down, settling me into the
pillows, before he began. I wasn't prepared for how gentle he would be.
Every touch, every kiss, everything was beautiful and everything a woman could
wish for. Any nervousness I'd felt before melted away in how he was
cherishing me. And that's exactly what he was doing.
Light brushes of his fingers over my
skin, learning me. Fingertips circling my breasts, brushing over my
nipples. My eyes drifted closed as he leaned forward, his lips closing
over the tip. Flicks of his tongue, a nip here, a lick there. My
hands slid up his back to his head, fingers tangling in his hair. Pulling
him closer, needing more.
Fingers hooking into the waistband
of my panties, pulling them down my legs, exposing me completely.
Brushing up the insides of my legs, coming up to settle over me. Legs
moving restlessly, waiting for his next move.
"Open your legs for me,
baby."
His voice, sex-rough and husky, made
me weak. I did as he asked, my legs opening to give him better
access. He rewarded me by brushing his finger over my clit. I let
out a whimper at the sensation, so different from what it felt like when I did
it. Circling lightly, barely touching, making me melt. Sliding down
to circle my opening before sliding inside. My breath hitched at the
sensation. It didn't hurt, it just felt different.
"You okay?"
I nodded without opening my eyes, my
entire focus on his fingers. The way they felt on my skin was almost too
much for my senses to handle. When he began brushing kisses over my neck
and shoulders, it was too much for me. I came with a moan, my hips
rolling up against him.
I lay there panting, my body
shuddering from aftershocks. I hadn't expected I'd come so quickly and
embarrassment stained my cheeks red. My eyes opened and I looked up to
see Sanghyuk watching me, a slight smile on his lips.
"You're so beautiful when you
come," he whispered. I shuddered under his touch, his words making
me giddy. We'd barely begun and I knew that this would be a day I'd never
forget. Sanghyuk sliding down until he was between my legs had me moving,
my legs trying to close. We'd never gotten this far and I felt too
exposed. The kiss he placed on my lower tummy made me giggle.
"It's okay. Just
relax."
That was easier said than done, but
after a few deep breaths, I did. Feeling his fingers brush against me, I
shivered. When I felt his tongue, it was almost too much. My head
arched back into the pillows as I moaned. I'd never felt anything like
it. His tongue glided over my flesh, circling my clit. A flick of
his tongue over the hood of my clit, making me twitch. It felt so good I
couldn't even process it. My body moved against him, hips rolling.
My hands covered my breasts, fingers tweaking my nipples.
When his finger slid inside, curling
up just so, I swear I saw stars. With every flick of his tongue and glide
of his finger, he brought me closer and closer to another climax. I could
feel it coming, the orgasm feeling like it was at the tip of my tongue. I
couldn't stay quiet, noises escaping me at how good I felt. Another
finger sliding in and I was done. I came around his fingers, my inner
muscles clenching him tight. He didn't let me come down from this one,
his tongue and fingers bringing me right back up again.
He sat up and I opened my eyes to
see him grinning at me, his lips shiny with my pleasure. He lifted a hand
to wipe his mouth, before standing up to strip. He reached for something
I couldn't see. When I saw he was rolling on a condom, I bit my
lip. We had arrived and I was ready. More than ready. About
ready to die, I wanted him inside me so badly.
He rolled over and crawled up until
his mouth was aligned with mine. His lips brushed over mine, his tongue
slipping inside. I could taste myself on his tongue, a weird
sensation. But I forgot any and all of that when I felt him. The
blunt head of his cock brushed against me, before he reached down to take
himself in hand. He guided himself in to me, sliding in just a bit.
The stretch didn't hurt, it just
felt...odd. He waited as I took a deep breath and relaxed. Another
inch. Waiting. Deep breath. Another. This went on until
he was seated deep inside of me. He bent over me, his arms holding up his
weight, shaking at the effort it was taking for him to stay still. But he
did, allowing me to grow accustomed to the feeling of him inside of me.
Soft, languid kisses, building my
desire back up. I was still super sensitive from my previous orgasms, but
as he began to thrust, rolling his hips gently against me, I realized that was
good. He was brushing nerve endings I didn't even know I had, making me moan.
When he slid one hand down to cup the back of my leg and lift it up so it
wrapped around his hip, the change of angle made me cry out. I wrapped
both legs around him, allowing me to arch up when he thrust.
It felt so good I didn't want it to
end. I'd heard my friends say that orgasming your first time was usually
not going to happen, but maybe I was the weird one. Because I could feel
it coming. It hit slowly, coming up from my toes, making me thrash
against him as it rolled over me. I heard him curse, his mouth next to my
ear and his body arching tight against mine as he came.
We lay there, breathing harsh as we
came down. Sanghyuk was nothing but sweetness and gentleness, brushing
soft kisses over my neck and shoulder. He had me snuggled up against him,
his soft cock still inside of me. When he pulled out, I let out a
whimper, missing the feeling of him inside of me. He rolled over and
stood up, disappearing into the bathroom. I heard the shower turn on and
he came back out to me.
Lifting me up, he carried me into
the bathroom, setting me down outside of the shower. Reaching in he
checked the temperature, before stepping inside and pulling me in with
him. I didn't know what he was planning, but when he did nothing but hold
me, I settled. He washed me, his touch tender. When he reached
between my legs, there was nothing sexual about it. He was cherishing me
and it was beautiful.
Once we'd finished and were dried
off, he carried me back to the bed and curled up around me. I lay on my
side, facing him, not wanting to close my eyes. I was so sleepy, but I
didn't want this moment to end. Sanghyuk watched me, a look on his face I
can't describe. All I knew was that I didn't want to break the
silence.
As I drifted off to sleep, I felt
his arms tighten around me.
"I love you, more than I can
say. You're my everything."
I smiled, brushing a kiss over his
chest where his heart beat against me.
"I love you too. And
you're mine."
This was so sweet!!!! And I told you once you were spying me... I don't know if you read it... but anyway... Hyuk is so cute and MY LORD! I imagined the room and everything...
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