TEN YEARS AGO:
The room was dark, a barely used classroom, lost in the bowels of the schools. Arms over your head, squatted in the corner, curled up in the smallest ball possible. Holding your breath, hoping they wouldn't hear you. You could hear the footsteps and that obnoxious hyena giggle. You bit your lip and tried not to shift position even though your thigh was cramping up.
Why was this happening to you? You were fifteen years old; bullying shouldn't be something you had to deal with anymore. And yet, here you were, every single day. You were so tired and wished your father would get transferred again, preferably far, far away. Anything to get you out of this school and away from him. The door cracked open and you straightened up, determined to face them head on. They walked in like they owned it, the leader stopping right in front of you, hands on his hips and a sneer on his lips.
"Aw, so the ugly duckling was hiding. What's the matter? You scared?"
You shook your head, hands clenching into fists at your sides. No matter what you said, you knew it would only make it worse. For some reason he hated you and his little group of followers did everything he wanted them to do. But you also knew that you were done letting him treat you like this. You needed to stand up for yourself.
"You know what? No, I'm not scared. What I am is tired of this stupid bullshit! Who died and made you God? I'm so fed up with your obnoxious behavior and your stupid minions following every little thing you tell them to do. All I want to do is come to school, be left alone and do my schoolwork. Not deal with your stupidity!"
You knew you should shut up, but now that the floodgates were open, you couldn't stop. You were so angry and so hurt. What had you ever done to him and his little minions to have them treat you like this? You could see the expression on his face change from a sneer to something much more sinister and your subconscious screamed at you to shut up.
Harsh hands gripped the front of your blouse and lips hard against yours, teeth biting into your lip. You tasted blood and began to struggle, hands on his shoulders to push him off. It had gone from bullying to something much more terrifying. You could hear that stupid hyena giggle, but also the shuffling of feet as his cronies realized things had changed.
A hand on your breast, fingers squeezing tight enough to bruise. You let out a whimper, struggling to get away. Your back against the wall, a hard thigh shoved between your legs. Terror coursed through you. You knew where this was headed and you began fighting in earnest.
Fists clenched, you wrenched back, your lip tearing in the process. You swung, your punch landing squarely in the center of his nose, the satisfying crunch of bones breaking loud in the deathly quiet room. Hands on you, your arms pulled tight behind your back. Fingers tangled in your hair, wrenching your head back. You were pushed out of the room, your feet stumbling as you tried to struggle.
The stairs loomed in front of you and you knew what was going to happen. Hands in the middle of your back, a hard shove sending you flying. Your body missed the first few stairs as you were airborne, but when you hit, you hit hard. Each stair seemed to crash into you, your body flopping uselessly like a rag doll as you rolled, your body out of your control. Your arms came up to cover your head, but it smacked against one of the stairs, sending you reeling.
Sprawled at the bottom of the stairs, the pain was excruciating. You struggled to breathe, your ribs busted. Everything hurt to the point your body was shutting down, sending you into oblivion. As you began to drift off you heard the running feet and the grunts, your scattered brain cells not registering what it meant. It was only when he knelt over you, his face pale and eyes worried that you realized what had happened.
"Jesus! What did they do to you? Hold on, okay? Just hold my hand. Help is on the way."
You struggled to smile, wanting him not to worry.
"Lee Jaehwan...," you whispered, your fingers tightening around his before falling limp, your body no longer able to function.
PRESENT TIME:
You struggled from the nightmare,
your body flailing as you sat up, kicking off the blankets that had tangled
around you. Scrubbing your hands over your face, you glanced over at the
clock on the bedside table, wincing when you saw the time. There was no
way you could sleep now, the nightmare still fresh in your memory. You
hadn't thought about that in awhile, therapy and time helping to get you past
it. For whatever reason it had come back, haunting your dreams.
Pushing to your feet, you stumbled
into the bathroom, needing to wash away the memories. Stripping off your
sweat-drenched clothes, you turned on the shower and stepped under the spray
without waiting for the water to warm up. The cold sent shivers down your
spine, but it woke you up.
Washing up quickly, you got out and
dressed again. It was 3 am and you weren't supposed to be awake for
another four hours. Exhaustion rode heavy on you, wearing you down.
This was the sixth time in less than two weeks that you'd been woken up, your
nightmares chasing you into reality. You were twenty-five years
old. Successful to a certain extent and not that timid little girl
anymore. But for whatever reason your subconscious wasn't letting this
go.
You went into the kitchen to brew some
tea. You needed something to bring you warmth and comfort. Anything
to get your mind off what had woken you up. You were thankful you had
plans to go out dancing that night with friends. It was a great stress
reliever and if you exhausted yourself enough to sleep without dreams, all the
better.
That night after work, you hurried
home and got dressed, wearing your favorite outfit. Black pants, black
tank, black, sheer, long-sleeved blouse and your favorite boots. You
never dressed to impress. You dressed to be comfortable and to be able to
dance your ass off. If there was one thing you loved to do, it was
dance. The freedom music gave you was something you couldn't explain.
You met your friends at your
favorite club, music already at a deafening level. You found a table and
were out on the dance floor first, the music taking you over. You wanted
to lose yourself to the moment and you did. The bass felt like it was
coming up through your toes, vibrating through your chest.
You hadn't been there long, maybe an
hour, when something made you pause, your body freezing in place. You
looked up, glancing around to see what had disturbed your zen. You saw
the entourage first, the two huge men all in black, their muscles bigger than
their heads. Celebrities weren't unusual for the club you were at, since
it was close to the entertainment district. You weren't there for them,
but for some reason you couldn't look away.
When you saw him, you could feel the
blood leeching from your face, memories piling up on you. Lee Jaehwan, or
Ken as he was known now. You hadn't seen him since he'd rescued you, but
you could never forget that face. When he'd debuted with VIXX you'd
followed him, your deep-seated crush always there. He'd grown into his
face and his voice was one of the most beautiful voices you'd ever heard.
But you weren't sure you wanted to face him there, not then. Not ever if
you were being completely honest. He disappeared with his entourage to
the VIP section of the club and you let out a deep sigh of relief, your body
almost faint with it. You'd escaped having to face your past and you were
thankful.
The music changed into something
with a deeper, heavier beat. You began to dance in earnest, needing to
disappear into the beat again. Losing all track of time, the music the
only thing you registered. Your friends came and went, drifting off to
get drinks and rest their aching feet, but not you. You didn't even feel
your body anymore. Any aches and pains you had would be felt in the morning
when you woke up.
Your eyes had drifted closed a long
time ago and when you felt the hands resting low on your hips, they flew open,
your body freezing in shock. You glanced over your shoulder, gulping when
you saw Jaehwan's face so close to you, his eyes warm and shining. There
was nothing you could do, letting the song take you over again. The fact
that it was you he'd chosen to dance with completely escaped you, your only
thought escaping as soon as the music changed.
But something happened. His
hands were warm on your skin through your clothes, strong and long
fingered. His body was pressed tight against your back and his breath was
hot on your neck as your bodies moved in unison. There was something
about him that made you feel safe, which you never felt around men. Ever.
"You're so beautiful," he
whispered, his lips against your ear. Shivers went down your spine, your
nipples tightening.
You shook your head and started to
pull away, but his hands slid around to your stomach and pressed you tighter
against him. You could feel his hard cock against your ass, which would
normally make you run away. Far, far away. But for some reason you
didn't feel that way. Instead, your hips rolled, pressing you up against
him. For the life of you, you couldn't figure out why you were doing
this. At the same time, you didn't want to stop.
He got you turned around so you were
facing him, his hands sliding down your back to the curves of your ass.
Your arms were around his neck, your bodies pressed together from chest to
pelvis. Your hips rocked side to side, your bodies moving in perfect
sync.
When his head dipped down and his
lips tasted yours, your mouth opened for him. His tongue slid inside your
mouth, his taste minty fresh and pleasing to your senses. You were so
tired of always feeling like you were worthless. You wanted to feel sexy
and desired and he was more than providing that for you.
"Take me home," he grunted
as he pulled back, his forehead resting against yours. You nodded, taking
him by the hand and leading him out of the club, your friends left
forgotten. Once in the cab, you were all over each other, your body draped
over his lap, your mouths fused together. The cabbie had to be getting an
eyeful, but you didn't care. Your body was one fire and Jaehwan was the
only one who could quench it.
Back at your apartment you stumbled
up the stairs, your bodies more interested in each other than getting up the
stairs safely. You got the door to your apartment open and got inside,
only to be pressed up against the door, his heavy thigh between yours as his
lips brushed over your neck, your shirt sliding down your arms to fall to the
floor. Hands cupped your breasts, thumbs flicking over your fabric
covered nipples, bringing them to hard points. Your hands rested on his
shoulders, your body feeling boneless as he pressed his thigh against you,
rubbing you through your pants.
It had been so long since you'd been
intimate with anyone, so much stimulation almost too much for your senses to
handle. Your tank was pulled over your head and your bra was loose in
seconds, dragged down your arms to land on the floor at your feet. Feeling
his warm hands cupping your breasts made you moan, the softness of his skin
almost soothing.
Urgency kicked in, your hands
pulling at the t-shirt tucked into his jeans, your hands running over the skin
of his back. You felt him grunt as you reached around to the front, your
fingers brushing over the fly of his jeans. His hard cock against your
fingers as you cupped him through his jeans, your teeth biting into your lower
lip at what you felt there. He wasn't small and it sent a sense of fear
through you. You hadn't been intimate with too many men in your lifetime
and though you knew he'd fit, you knew it would be tight.
When his teeth nipped your
collarbone, you lost all sense of thought, your focus on his mouth on
you. Those plush, full lips, with the slightly wonky smile that used to
make your stomach flutter all those years ago. That he was there, with
you, was surreal.
"What's your name," you
heard whispered as he lifted his head, his tongue brushing over the shell of
your ear.
Any and all thoughts of sex were
gone, your attraction shut off like it had never happened. Pulling back
you reached down and grabbed the first piece of clothing your fingers brushed
against. You pulled the tank over your head and stared at him, not even
knowing what to say. If you had known he didn't know who you were, you
never would have let it go this far. That he had no idea who you were
hurt. It hurt more than you could have thought possible.
"I'm sorry. I would
really like it if you left now."
Jaehwan stared at you, his mouth
slack with shock.
"I...I'm sorry! Did I do
something to hurt you?"
You shook your head, turning to pull
the door open.
"Even if I told you, you
wouldn't believe me. Just go...please."
He stood there staring at you for
what seemed like an eternity, before shaking his head and walking out.
You shut the door gently behind him and slid down the door, the tears escaping
no matter how much you wished they wouldn't. You were humiliated, pure
and simple. How could he not know who you were? It wasn't like
you'd changed all that much. Yes, ten years had passed, but you still
looked the same.
You hadn't been friends in school,
but you'd shared classes and he had rescued you that fateful day. The
fact that he didn't know who you were made you feel like you were
invisible. It wasn't a pleasant feeling to have. You were crying
over a man, something you'd sworn you wouldn't do again. Pride made you
swipe your hands over your face as you stumbled to your feet. Crying
wouldn't do anything to fix this problem. Kicking him out hadn't helped
you out either, leftover attraction and hormones riding you hard.
If only you'd let him stay, he would
be inside you now. But you'd never stoop that low, allowing sex to
override your common sense. You were too smart for that.
In the bathroom you splashed cold
water over your face, needing to wash away any hint of the tears you'd
shed. You were stronger than this. You'd survived much worse.
You were a survivor in any and all sense. That this was the hardest thing
you'd ever done didn't escape you, that long ago crush weighing you down.
Over the next few days you
functioned, your body going through its usual routine of eating, sleeping and
working, but you were only there in body. Your spirit wasn't there, your
thoughts revolving constantly over that night. You could still taste
Jaehwan on your tongue and it made you hungry for more. But you knew any
chances of anything ever happening were nil.
Your phone buzzing at you with an
unknown number wasn't something you were expecting. When you answered the
call, the phone pressed to your ear, hearing Jaehwan's voice on the other end
had you fumbling, dropping the phone into your lap. You swore under your
breath as you got the phone back to your ear.
"Hello?"
"I'm sorry. I know this
is unusual, but I got your number and wanted to call you."
"How did you get my
number," you asked, since you definitely hadn't given it to him.
"Um...I called your landlord
and maybe fibbed a little."
"A little?"
"Okay, a lot. But I had
to call you and apologize. The way the other night ended has bugged me
and I felt like I needed to say I'm sorry. I don't know what I did to
upset you, but I am truly sorry. I know you won't believe me, but you're
the first girl I've ever done that with. I don't usually leave the club
with anyone...ever."
You scoffed, not able to believe
that someone like him had never taken a woman home. It just went against
every hot guy thing you'd ever heard. But the sincerity of his voice was
obvious even through the phone. You couldn't hold it against him.
It wasn't his fault he was blind and hadn't recognized you. Sucking it
up, you gave him another chance.
"I accept your apology. I
do. And I'm sorry for the way I basically kicked you out. I'm not a
bitch, I promise. Things just...went too fast for me."
"I understand. I
do. So, I was wondering, will you give me another chance? Something
simple, like coffee or a meal? I'd really like to talk to you
face-to-face."
You found yourself agreeing, setting
up a date for the next day. When you hung up, you stared blankly at the
phone in your hand completely flabbergasted at the turn of events. That
he had lied to your landlord in order to apologize was a little weird, but this
was Lee Jaehwan. The man who was more random than anyone you'd ever met
in your life. You wouldn't put anything past him and your curiosity was
high. So was your anticipation.
For the date you put thought into
your ensemble, dressing in something soft and feminine. You felt like a
woman for the first time in forever and the fact that it was Jaehwan who made
you feel this way just made it all the sweeter. You'd agreed to meet at a
small coffee shop and when you went inside, you found he hadn't arrived yet.
You ordered tea and found a small booth hidden in the back. Sitting down
facing the door, you waited for him to arrive.
He did with little fanfare, a dark
hoodie pulled up over his head. He placed his order and when you gave him
a wave, he came over, scooting into the booth across from you. He slid
off his sunglasses and smiled at you, his slightly wonky smile endearing and
sweet.
"Thank you for being
here."
You dipped your head in
acknowledgment, but had no idea what to say or do. Nerves were kicking in
and you were afraid you would make an ass of yourself. You kept your
mouth shut, sipping your tea and avoiding eye contact with him. His hand
over yours where it cradled the mug brought your attention back to him.
You glanced down at his his hand over yours, your teeth biting into your lower
lip.
"Are you nervous," he
asked, his voice low and husky. You nodded, unable to speak. His
thumb brushed over the back of your hand, sending goosebumps up your arm.
"Don't be."
"I can't help it," you
whispered, your voice scratchy with nerves.
"Do I make you nervous or does
the situation make you nervous? Because if I make you nervous, I hope
it's in a good way. Because you definitely make me nervous."
You sighed, feeling it was time to
come clean.
"Do you really not know who I
am," you asked, pulling your hand free. He stared at you, his
expression completely blank. You could tell the question made no sense to
him.
"What do you mean? Should
I?"
You shook your head, the absurdity
of it all making you want to laugh.
"I haven't changed that much,
Jaehwan. Think back. Quiet, shy, a target...you saved me after I'd
been shoved down a flight of stairs."
His eyes widened, his mouth dropping
open with shock. You waited for the disgust to appear, but when he smiled
and reached over to grasp your hands, you were taken aback.
"Oh, my God! I can't
believe it!"
"Well, believe it," you
said, trying to pull your hands free. He wouldn't let go, his hands
tightening on yours.
"Why didn't you tell me who you
were the other night? I'm sorry I didn't recognize you right away.
My memory for faces is terrible and it's been ten years. But you should
have said something instead of acting like I had the plague."
"I'm sorry, okay?! I'm
sorry I kicked you out, but honestly, it hurt that you didn't recognize
me. You rescued me, for God's sake. If that doesn't create some
type of bond, I don't know what does!"
"I'm sorry! I really and
truly am! Now I feel like shit that I made you feel that way. And
I've always wanted to tell you I'm sorry I didn't get to you sooner back
then. I wish I had."
You shook your head, discomforted
that he was bringing up that dreaded subject. You wanted, no needed, to
move on. Move past that horrible day. Jaehwan being there, with
you, was a chance at a new beginning. But you were going to take it
slow. You needed to get to know Jaehwan as a man, as the person he was
now, not the boy you'd fallen for all those years ago.
"Please don't talk about that
time. Please. I just want to move past it. I'm glad we're
here together and I hope we can get to know each other as the people we are
now."
The smile that came over his face
was almost blinding, his happiness almost contagious.
"Excellent!"
With that, it was like the black
fugue that had been hovering over you disappeared. The conversation and
laughter flowed, your comfort level in his presence astonishing. You'd
never felt so comfortable around a man who wasn't a relative. That he had
you in stitches as he told stories about his life as an idol didn't hurt.
You'd never met anyone who could make you laugh like he could.
You struggled to breathe, your arms
wrapped around your middle as he finished a story concerning Wonsik and missing
pair of socks that wouldn't have been anywhere near as funny told by someone
else.
"Stop! Please! My
tummy hurts and I blame it all on you."
He laughed and shook his head, a
slight blush covering his cheeks. That he was so shy made his natural
humor all the more endearing. All you wanted to do was squish his cheeks,
just to watch him smile.
"Ha! I'm not funny.
You're just charmed by my sexy side. Don't lie."
You burst out into giggles again and
waved a hand at him.
"Oh, yes, your stories are so
sexy!"
He snorted and the laughter rang
out. Tears poured down your cheeks, but they were good tears. You
hadn't laughed so hard in ages and it felt cathartic. Jaehwan glanced
down at his watch, a frown coming to his lips.
"I've got to go. I wish I
didn't have to leave, but we've got a schedule tomorrow and I need to get a
little bit of sleep. Please tell me we can do this again?"
You nodded with a smile.
Standing up, he reached out a hand, helping you out of the booth. He
pulled the hood up with his other hand and pulled you with him as he walked out
of the cafe. He stopped just outside, moving away from the door and smiled
at you. He pulled you in for a hug, his arms wrapped around your waist as
he snugged you up against him. Your head rested against his chest just
under his chin and you let out a sigh. It felt so good; too good.
He pulled away, and after telling
you he'd text you, he walked away, turning at the end of the block to wave at
you. You waved back and walked home, your body tingling from his
hug. The fact that you had a chance at another date with Jaehwan gave you
a thrill. Something you hoped you could pursue. Now that you were
getting to know him, the crush you'd had back in high school paled in
comparison to what you could feel for him now. And the thought didn't
scare you anywhere near as much as you thought it should.
Over the next few weeks you met as
often as his crazy schedule and your job allowed, usually on the weekends or in
the later evening. Each time you met you were getting closer. You
still felt comfortable around him, but the attraction you'd felt that night at
the club was never far from your mind. You'd only had sex with two men in
your lifetime, both long-term boyfriends. And though they hadn't been bad
in bed, there had never been that intense attraction with them like there was
with Jaehwan.
You'd always been a vanilla-sex kind
of person, your inability to truly trust people making it hard to let go and
really enjoy sex. You'd orgasmed, but only at your own hands. As
attracted to Jaehwan as you already were, you had a feeling sex with him might
actually be an amazing experience, if you could get past the fact that he
wasn't small. You were intimidated, plain and simple.
Thank God Jaehwan seemed to
understand that, never pressuring you for more than a hard hug or a brief kiss,
his every action gentlemanly and compassionate. He was a better man than
most, his patience more than you could ever ask for.
It all came to a head three months
after your first date. You had made the decision first thing that morning
that you were going to do it. You were going to have sex with him.
You even bought a pack of condoms on the way from work, determined that you
were going to follow through. You texted and asked him if he was
free. When he said he was, you asked him over.
By the time he got there you were a
nervous wreck, your hands sweating and your body trembling. As much as
you liked him, the thought of him seeing you naked was terrifying. What
if he took one look at you and left? You had scars, the fall down the
stairs doing more damage than initially thought. You'd had surgeries to
repair the damage and those scars were rather prominent. That you weren't
in perfect shape was there to smack you in the face every time you took a
shower, the little pooch to your stomach a constant reminder that you didn't
work out as much as you should. It still boggled your mind that Jaehwan
was even interested in you.
He arrived and pulled you into a
loose hug, before pulling away to flop down on the couch. You knew what
he thought you would do. You usually spent your evenings watching dramas
or movies, but not tonight. Taking a deep breath to psych yourself up,
you walked over to him, straddling his lap. His hands came to rest on
your hips, his eyes wide with shock.
"What are you doing?"
"Isn't it obvious," you
asked, leaning down to kiss him. He didn't respond to the kiss right
away, his hands holding tight to your hips as you brushed soft kisses over his
lips. When he pulled his head away and frowned at you, you sat back with
a sigh, your weight on his thighs.
"No, I mean what the hell are
you doing? Don't get me wrong, I want to make love to you like I want my
next breath, but are you ready for that?"
You had to smile at the concern you
could see on his face and hear in his voice. That he cared made your
heart melt.
"I want you to make love to me,
Jaehwan."
"You're sure?"
"Yes, I'm sure. If you
ask me again, I'm going to have to smack you."
"Okay, I just wanted to make
sure."
With those words, things
changed. One of his hands lifted from your hip to come up to cup your
face, his thumb brushing over your lower lip. His eye contact was direct
and he wouldn't let you look down, his hand sliding to the back of your head to
keep you from looking away. You watched as he leaned forward, his lips
brushing gently against yours. Your eyes drifted shut as he deepened the
kiss, his tongue brushing over your lips.
His hand dropped from your head to
go back to your hip. He began to thrust up against you, his hard cock
pressed tight to you. Your hips rolled automatically, a deep groan coming
from both your lips. He felt so good against you, better than you
expected. You wanted him, more than you wanted anything else.
His hands slid up under your shirt,
reaching for the back clasp of your bra, unsnapping it with deft fingers.
Pulling back from the kiss he pulled your shirt over your head, the bra not far
behind. His eyes were reverent as he looked down at you, his hands coming
up to cup your breasts. You let out a long sigh, enjoying the sensation
of his warm hands on your skin. But your insecurities were rearing their
ugly head, making you want to cover up.
Instead, you leaned forward to kiss
him again, determined to move past this. His fingers tweaking your
nipples helped you forget anything but that feeling. He used just the
right amount of pressure, hard enough to cause a slight sting, but not enough
to actually hurt. Your tongue slipped between his lips, that alluring
minty taste there for you to savor. It might have just been his
toothpaste, but to you it was Jaehwan's unique flavor.
You found yourself on your back on
your bed, no memory of how you got there, Jaehwan's presence completely
overwhelming your senses. He knelt over your legs, his legs braced on
either side of yours. He stripped off his shirt and you let out a long
sigh of appreciation. He wasn't ripped, but he was solid, the breadth of
his shoulders no joke.
He leaned back down to kiss you, his
fingers coming to the snap of your jeans. The sound of the zippering
lowering filled the room and you froze. Jaehwan pulled back from the kiss
and looked down at you, his fingers stopping their movement.
"You okay?"
You nodded, your hand coming down to
cover his. You helped him lower the zipper all the way, lifting your hips
as he pulled your jeans and panties down your legs. He stood up and
pulled them over your feet, tossing them aside. Lifting your foot, he
pressed a kiss to the arch before doing the same to the other foot. Your
toes curled, but it made you smile.
"Come here," you
whispered, lifting your arms towards him. With a smile he was back, his
weight heavy but not unpleasant on you, his weight braced on his
forearms. He brushed the hair away from your face, his eyes focused on
you. You looked up at him, wondering why he hadn't kissed you again.
Your nerves were still there and you needed him to distract you. When he
made no move to kiss you, you reached up and pulled him down so you could kiss
him. You felt his lips curve in a smile before you lost yourself in the
kiss.
Everything was going well, your bodies
entwined as you continued to kiss, your hands roaming freely as you learned
each others bodies. It was only when you were both naked that the panic
started clawing its way up your spine. He was between your legs, pressing
kisses to your thighs when you pushed away, rolling off the bed and running
into the bathroom. You slammed the door shut and stumbled to the sink,
splashing water over your face as you tried to catch your breath.
You hadn't had a panic attack in
years, but you were getting one now. Everything felt tight, your lungs
struggling to take in a deep breath as your heart beat so hard it felt like it
would come through your chest. Rubbing a hand over your heart, you lifted
your other hand to press it to your mouth, wishing you could curl up and
die. You'd never been so embarrassed in your life.
There was a knock at the door and
Jaehwan stepped in, his jeans pulled on but left unbuttoned. You made eye
contact with him in the mirror, your eyes wide and panic-stricken.
Jaehwan came over to you, wrapping his arms loosely around your waist and
pulling him to you.
"Baby, are you okay?"
You shook your head, not able to
articulate what the trouble was. Thankfully he seemed to figure it out,
his hand coming up to cover yours as it rubbed over your chest.
"Take a deep breath. Deep
breath in and then let it out. Do it for me."
Keeping eye contact with him in the
mirror, you did as he said. He breathed deep with you, his exhalations on
your skin sending goosebumps over your skin. You could feel the panic
receding as you continued to breathe deep, the eye contact with him helping
keep you centered. When you felt you had yourself under control, you
pulled away from him and wrapped your arms over your chest, embarrassment
kicking in and turning your cheeks hot.
"I'm so sorry, Jaehwan.
That's not how I wanted this night to go."
"I know. Can I ask a
serious question? And I'm being sincere."
You nodded, not wanting to see his
face as he spoke. You turned your back on him, your head drooping low as
you waited.
"Are you afraid of me?
Have I done something to scare you?"
The question shocked you so bad your
hands dropped to your sides as you turned to him, your head shaking an emphatic
no.
"God, no! Oh, Jaehwan,
I'm so sorry! No, don't ever think that. God, this is so
humiliating!"
Jaehwan stepped forward, his arms
coming around you to pull you close. Your arms automatically going around
his waist.
"Thank God! Will you
please tell me what is going on then? You scared me just now."
"God, I don't know how to
explain this to you without sounding like a complete imbecile."
"Try me."
"I don't want you to see me
naked, okay? I hate my body. I hate the idea of you seeing all of
my imperfections. And I don't have a ton of experience. I've only
had sex with two people in my life. It was always in the dark because I
couldn't handle the idea of them seeing me."
Jaehwan's arms tightened around you,
before he pulled back so he could look you in the face.
"And if I told you there was
nothing wrong with your body and that I thought you were the sexiest woman I've
ever seen?"
"I'd call bullshit."
He smirked, his eyebrow coming up at
the tone of your voice. Without saying a word his hands went to your butt
and lifted you up, setting you down on the vanity. The best part about
your apartment was the bathroom, mirrors on just about every surface with a
huge walk-in shower and a tub that would fit two comfortably. It was one
of the main reasons why you'd rented it. But that wasn't on your mind
when you realized you could see yourself very clearly at all angles. Now
you wanted to curse all of those mirrors, your flaws there for you both
to see.
Jaehwan stepped between your legs,
his body snug up against yours. His hands cupped your face and he brushed
a kiss over the tip of your nose.
"I'm going to prove to you just
how beautiful you are to me. I don't want to hear you say how ugly you
think you are. I want you to see what I see."
Your eyebrow cocked up, but you
didn't say anything. Your curiosity was piqued and you wanted to see how
he saw you.
"Stay put."
He left you there, your naked ass
cold on the vanity. He went out and came back with a dining room chair,
which he set down right in front of you. He sat down and scooted forward,
his hands coming to rest on your thighs. You knew where this was headed and
didn't know if you could survive it. With gentle pressure he parted your
legs, scooting forward until his knees hit the edge of the vanity.
"Put your feet on my knees,
baby," he whispered, his hands on the insides of your thighs. Biting
your lip you complied, your feet resting on his knees. He scooted you
forward under your ass was hanging slightly off the edge of the counter, your
legs spreading open farther. He pressed a kiss to the inside of your
thigh and smiled up at you.
"I want you to watch as I eat
you out. I want you to see your body through my eyes. Don't close
your eyes."
You nodded and watched as he leaned
forward, his fingers brushing over the lips of your pussy. His tongue
brushed lightly over your clit, sending a quiver through you. Your head
tilted back against the mirror behind you, but you followed his instructions,
your eyes struggling to stay open. You saw the reflection of his back as
he began to lick your clit with purpose. The sight of his dark hair between
your thighs made you moan, your hands coming down to rest on top of his head.
There was no doubt in your mind he
knew exactly what he was doing, his every move specifically there for your
pleasure. His lips, his tongue, his fingers were all used with expertise,
playing your body like the finest instrument. The orgasm was there, in
the distance, but it was there. You'd never come for anyone before and
your body wanted to fight it, embarrassment riding you hard. But you
forgot to feel it when his fingers slipped inside you, filling you. Each
glide in and out made your thighs quiver as you struggled to keep your eyes
open.
The flush that covered your skin,
the way your lips parted as you gasped for breath, the way your breasts heaved
as you writhed under his ministrations was all there right in front of
you. There was no escaping the fact that you could see it all. And
you realized in that moment that you were beautiful in his eyes. If what
he saw was what you saw, there was a beauty there.
The orgasm struck, your body arching
up to his mouth, your legs trembling as you writhed against him, your hands
tight in his hair. You collapsed, gasping, your hands falling from his
head as your eyes finally closed. Jaehwan pressed a kiss to the inside of
both thighs, his fingers sliding from your body, causing you to twitch as
aftershocks fluttered through you.
"God, you're beautiful,"
he whispered, his hands sliding up and down your legs. You opened your
eyes and looked down to see him looking at you, his lips shiny with your
juices. When he pulled you towards him, you went willingly, your arms
wrapping around his shoulders. Your lips met in a kiss that was sweet,
but full of promise, the taste of you on his tongue.
"Condoms," he muttered
against your lips, shifting you so he could pull his jeans down enough to free
himself. You reached back and opened the drawer, pulling out the box
you'd purchased earlier. Within seconds you'd ripped open the package and
had his cock sheathed. When his cock slid inside you, you both let out
long, deep moans. He filled you to perfection, his cock hard and
thick. His hands were on your hips, pulling you down until he'd bottomed
out.
You stayed that way for a moment,
your kisses languid and sweet. When he began to thrust, his hands pulled
you down to meet each one. Exhalations, soft moans, throaty cries filled
the room, his every move making you feel cherished and sexy. His cock
sliding in and out of you, his hands roaming over your back as he continued his
kisses, bringing you more pleasure than you could have ever imagined.
You felt the way your inner muscles
fluttered and realized another orgasm was imminent. You let out a gasp,
your head falling back as you reached for it. You rode him hard, your
hands clenched on his shoulders as you rolled your hips. You heard him
grunt before his teeth closed over that sensitive juncture where neck and
shoulder met. The slight sting sent you over, a long moan escaping your
lips as you rode it out. You felt him join you, his hips jerking as he
came.
Collapsing against him, your head
rested on his shoulder as you gasped for breath, your body trembling.
Jaehwan's hand roamed up and down your back, the touch gentle as he calmed
you. As you cuddled you realized that you'd reached a turning
point. You weren't miraculously healed, but as he lifted you off him and
discarded the condom, only to wrap you up in his arms and carry you into the
bedroom, you knew you were on your way to becoming the woman you'd always
wanted to be.
Jaehwan pulled the blankets over you
and snuggled you close to his chest, pressing kisses to your shoulder as you
relaxed against him.
"Thank you," you said,
picking up his hand and entwining your fingers. He pulled you closer and
leaned up so he could make eye contact with you.
"Thank you for what?"
"For being there for me when I
needed you most. Not just now, but then too. You saved me."
He shook his head as he leaned down
to press a kiss to your cheek.
"No, baby, you saved
yourself. I just happened to be there."
This was so touching!!! I really really love the way this story went, he tried to saved her even when he used to be her bully... I felt connected with the girl, boys used to punched me and sometimes kicked me, but never tried to killed me... I LOVE YOUR WRITING!!! And you know that!!! God bless you!!!!
ReplyDeleteJaehwan was never the bully. He rescued her from the bullies.
DeleteBut he liked to tease her??? Or he happened to be there...? Kekeke
DeleteI can't describe with words how much I love this story. Thank you for bringing it back.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad. It's one of my absolute favorites too. He's what every woman wishes for in the way he treats her. It's beautiful. :)
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