Saying Goodbye?

Hello, my faithful readers!


I've been thinking a lot lately, about this blog and writing fan fiction in general.  When I started this blog in December of 2014 (originally), I did so with the thought that I wanted to write sex the way it should be written.  I was tired of reading barely credible takes on love, sex and everything else in between.  That anyone actually read my stories boggled my mind.

But, in all honesty, I'm burned out.  I feel like I'm stuck in a rut and it's not fair to my readers.  I want to produce well-written stories that make people come back for more and obviously I haven't done that in awhile.  I came back with my soulmates AU and honestly, as much as I love writing it, I'm beginning to think it isn't worth continuing.

I know fan fiction writing is a fickle business.  There are writers out there that have major followings with people commenting left and right on how much they love their stories.  Then there are writers like me who have absolutely no idea how many readers I have because getting people to interact with me is like pulling teeth.  I've tried keeping the mindset that I write for myself, but when I'm getting no satisfaction out of writing, what's the point?  I did this because I love writing romance, but when I'm lucky to get maybe one comment on my blog, who am I really writing this for?

I don't get paid to write fan fiction.  It's been my dream since I was a child to be a published author and maybe be lucky enough to make a living doing so.  I make absolutely nothing writing these stories and as an unemployed person, that sucks.

So, I've been doing some major soul searching.  I want to write books.  I want my writing to get out into the world.  I want people to read about these characters that I create.  But right now, I'm stuck in a very narrow niche and it's stifling me.  I spent years creating buzz with the pseudonym I chose to write under and these last few years I've found that it isn't getting me anywhere.

Will I write fan fiction again?  Maybe?  Maybe not?  It depends on if I can get back into that mindset or not.  But for right now, I'm going to work on a book.  Something that I actually started on here and found that my usual readers didn't like.  This series is dear to my heart and something I'm passionate about.  Something I've been planning out for years and years.  Now, I'm making it a reality.

I know I have things that are unfinished.  I might take them down.  Maybe bring them back later.  I will not be deleting my previous stories since I know a lot of people like to go back and read them over again.  But I feel like my fan fiction writing days are over for now.  I hope you'll understand.  I'm sure I'm pissing many people off, which sucks, but maybe if you saw it from my perspective, you'd understand.

I've put up a link to my Facebook page.  Bridget is my pseudonym; the name I've chosen to write under.  I'll keep it up to date and give you an opportunity to communicate with me that way.  In the meantime, I'm going to sign off.  Say goodbye for now.  And who knows, maybe you'll see me back sooner than you thought.

Writing Prompts & Things! Huzzah!

Hey, everyone!  Long time, no see!  :P  I have to apologize for disappearing.  I've moved twice since mid-July and things are just now settling down.  It hasn't been easy to get my mind in a writing mindset, which is extremely frustrating.  I've been trying so hard to write, but everything just comes across as stupid.  :(

BUT, I have a ton of great ideas that I can't wait to share with you all.  That being said, I AM trying to get back into the writing game.  I've done this before with good results and we shall see if things work for me this time.  I came across this list online and changed a few of them to fit my style.  I really hope y'all are still around and that you'll participate.  The more prompts I get, the more likely I am to get inspired.

So, the rules:  You can choose 1 or more members.  You can also choose up to four prompts from the list below the cut.  When you list your choice, if you want to expand on the choice, please do (example: blindfold with a silk scarf and chains of spider silk.  Fingers spreading chocolate over the skin...etc.) Whatever you want to do is good with me.  :)

Members you can choose:  VIXX or BTS.  The deadline for this is Sunday, November 13th at midnight Pacific Standard Time.  Each person can have up to four requests.  :)  


And PS: has anyone else died because of BAP's new album?  That it's called Noir slays me.  Black is right in the best possible way.  *happy sigh*

Greetings!

I keep feeling like a heel because I'll come back for a second and then disappear again.  In my defense, life is super chaotic right now.  I just started a new job and am in the midst of moving...again.  Ugh!

But, things are looking up!  Today is my 40th birthday and I'm making some major changes for myself.  One is to write more often.  Let's see how well I do at keeping that promise to myself.

Hey Y'all!

First of all, I just wanted to say thank you to everyone who submitted on my last post.  I really appreciate it.  Leo was hands down the biggest winner.  I don't even want to tell you how many requests I got for him.

I'm sure you've noticed I haven't been online much.  It's not that I don't want to write.  Honestly, I really, really want to write.  The problem is timing.  Since moving to Oregon, I've been looking for work.  Actually, if I'm being honest, the first month I didn't look at all.  My best friend told me to just rest and get my mojo back because with everything that happened up until my move, I was completely burned out.

I'm finally feeling like me again, but my life has definitely not settled down at all.  We're getting kicked out our house because the landlords need to get their heads examined, so we're trying to figure out our living situation.  To say that we're pissed is an understatement.  Plus, my best friend is getting married and it's just...insane.  I kind of want to crawl into a corner and whimper.  LOL!

And I don't know about y'all, but this heatwave that's going on right now can go far, far away.  It's currently 97 outside and it is absolutely nauseating.  Our central air doesn't work, so I've been doing my best to keep myself and my BFF's dog from melting.  We're both still alive, so that's something, I suppose.

I would really like to write.  I'm hoping things will settle down here soon and we can just move on.  I just want to live somewhere and not feel like I've got to move in five minutes.  That would be ideal.

So, I'll be around, I hope.  Stay cool and stay blessed.

I Need Some Motivation...Or Something

Here I am again.  I don't know if anyone saw my rant on Twitter yesterday, but I've hit a creative dead spot when it comes to VIXX.  I haven't liked ANY of their songs since Error and even really good pictures of the boys isn't enough to get my motor running (so to speak).  So I'm at a standstill.  

I honestly don't know if I want to continue doing fan fiction anymore.  It is really hard to keep the creativity flowing, especially when feedback is next to nil.  When I do ask for feedback, I get maybe two responses, which makes it seem less than worth my effort.

So, with that being said, I want to try something.  I've done these before, but this time I want to do it a little differently.  Instead of writing full stories, I think I'm going to do little drabbles.  Just short little stories that fit the prompt.  I just need...something.

• 1: Catching your muse watching porn 
• 2: Having your muse sneak up on mine in the shower
• 3: Being inappropriately touched by your muse under a dinner table
• 4: Waking my muse up with oral sex 
• 5: Getting a drunken kiss from your muse
• 6: Getting a nude pic of your muse that was meant for someone else
• 7: Spanking my muse in a public place
• 8: Being asked to be drawn naked by your muse
• 9: Whispering dirty things into my muse’s ear
• 10: Watching your muse touch themselves without your muse knowing
• 11: Having sex with your muse in a closet at a dinner party
• 12: Getting flashed by your muse
• 13: Having your muse join mine in the bathtub
• 14: Ripping my muse’s shirt open
• 15: Waking up next to your muse after a night of drunk sex
• 16: Listening to your muse read an erotic novel to my muse
• 17: Doing a striptease for my muse
• 18: Calling my muse a different name during sex
• 19: Walking in on your muse having sex with someone else
• 20: Surprising my muse at work with a quickie

Please select a number and a member of VIXX, BTS and GOT7.  At this point I just want to write something.  

Greetings!

So, when I said I was going on hiatus, I wasn't lying.  BUT, I'm finally settling into my new home, 2400 miles from where I was.  Things are still at loose ends since my belongings are still back in Michigan, but my best friend has been an absolute godsend and has done her best to make my transition to Oregon a smooth one.

My trip was actually really lovely.  I took the train a week ago Monday from Dearborn to Chicago and then transferred to a sleeper train in Chicago.  If I hadn't been so completely exhausted from everything that had happened the week prior, I probably would have enjoyed the train ride a LOT more.  Sadly, I was so tired that I basically spent the entire trip as a zombie and barely looked out the window.

It was absolutely gorgeous scenery.  The train went from Chicago up to St. Paul/Minneapolis the first night.  When I woke up the next morning we were halfway across North Dakota.  Got into Montana on Tuesday and spent the majority of the day going thru that.  We reached the Rockies around 7 pm Tuesday night, which was a trip.  They start out as these itty-bitty little bumps on the horizon and the closer you get, the bigger they get.  Absolutely gorgeous and so green!!!

Got into Washington State around 1:30 in the morning on Wednesday and spent the morning going down the Columbia River Gorge.  I'd forgotten just how beautiful this part of the country is.  Got into Portland early and my best friend picked me up.

I currently live in Salem, which is about an hour south of Portland.  I seem like I'm out in the middle of nowhere, but I'm only fifteen minutes from the city center.  It is absolutely gorgeous out here.  We live on three quarters of an acre and are completely surrounded by trees.  Every night I go to sleep to the sound of the trees rustling in the breeze.

So far, things are good.  I still haven't started looking for a job because my best friend told me not to.  She wants me to be rested and in a good mindset before I start looking so I don't snap up the first job that comes my way.  I honestly have no idea what I want to get into.  I'm at a standstill because with my last job I just worked.  It wasn't what I WANTED to do.  It's a bit daunting to think about because I'm in total limbo right now and don't even know where to start.

That being said, I AM happy with my choice.  Right now I feel like a housewife because she's working and I'm not, so I make sure the dishes are done as well as the laundry.  I don't want her having to do more than she already is.  The house we live in is great.  Two huge bedrooms and 1.5 baths.  Wide open and if the doors are open, there's an amazing cross breeze that keeps the house cool.

She has two cats, a dog and three goats, which is a bit to get used to.  We'll more than likely be moving into Portland in January when her lease is up just to be closer to her work.  I'd LOVE to find something close to here with good pay so I can just take over her lease, but I have a feeling that isn't going to happen.

The sad thing about Oregon is how high the income tax is, so that makes it hard to find a really good paying job that will actually give me good take home pay.  I'm hoping to find something in the $20 an hour bracket since minimum wage is $15 here, which is ridiculous.  Thank God for no sales tax!

I hope to start writing soon.  I'm sorry I've been AWOL for so long.  With working more than full time + cleaning out my apartment, I just didn't have the wherewithal to be able to think, let alone write.  At least write anything coherent, anyway.

I hope y'all are doing well and I hope to have something up for you very soon!  :)

Hiatus

Hey, all!  Just a FYI that I will be on hiatus probably until August.  I'm in the middle of a cross country move & am so busy I can't think.  I will start posting again once I'm settled.